the 3rd day....

it have been 3 days since i start the new semester. things seem running considerably ok, considering all of the classes are in their first days. not much work though. i woke up late today, about 12 pm. no lab today so i went straight for the public speaking class at 6. got email from the people who works with the fntv, the independence film project, said that can meet the other people sometimes on dinner at middlebrook. well, still considering whether or not should i join it. most of the reluctant feeling that i have is because the fear of... i dunno. i always have this low self-esteem. even back in my hometown, i always refuse to go to some parties or something like that. what is wrong with me?